Thursday, May 17, 2007

violent dreams

maybe because this week at kickboxing, we're learning fun stuff like kungfu moves and how to turn someone's attack into an offense against them.. maybe 'cos i'm quite excited to practice that in real life.. maybe cos someone from uni has gone missing and sparks the idea that 'bad' people may be lurking around uni and i have to walk to and fro kickboxing alone in the dark.. maybe that's why i've been having dreams where the environment was quite "unsafe" in that i didn't feel comfy in it and there were 'bad' people, dodgy characters either trying to force me somewhere, suffocate and attempt to murder me etc.. like i got to fight them off literally in my dreams.. i'm not scared.. it juz makes me feel uneasy..

Sunday, May 06, 2007

research proposal presentation

smashing.. it was juz smashing.. lol.. the first time i remember ever being so nervous about presenting.. i seriously thought i was gonna be sick.. the butterflies in my tummy were threatening to break free, i kept telling myself to breathe.. breathe in, and out.. in.. and out.. lol.. no, it was not during, it was before the presentation.. i knew i was up against people as incredibly smart as me, wahahahaha, so it was no surprise i'm worried... but i had it rehearsed down pat.. so i guess, suffice to say, i did it! and i think it was not too bad.. i saw nodding heads as i explained my proposal, and had more than a couple of professors telling me i did well.. so i hope i see that reflected in the marks!!

not over yet.. this coming fri got another presentation & report due for course work.. and next week 2 assignments due.. then 2 weeks later my research proposal is due!!! time flies.. and strangely.. i love it! i love the uni academic experience.. never thought i'll hear myself say i love school, guess when people say uni can be a life-altering experience, they were right on the money!!